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Oh my.

06/16/2014

I haven't posted in AGES! Well guys I have been 203 for a while now :)
School has been very stressful but I will make it.
No Universal for my birthday buuuuut Seaworld and Old Town sounds good to me! :D
~Hannah♥(:

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Update♥

05/05/2014

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Hey guys! I am proud to say I am down to 208-209!
I am losing this weight. Slowly but surely!
Soon I will be the beautiful young woman that I was meant to be!
Thank you Universal for being my ultimate motivation.
I Luv Yu BB!
(Posting picture tomorrow (: )
~♥Hannah(:

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WooHoo!

04/24/2014

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I am VERY happy! I am now 211. I started off 216-217! I just cannot believe I lost 6 pounds :)! It isn't much but it's something! I want to say THANK YOU to everyone who hasn't supported me :) I did not need you♥. I will post pictures in a couple weeks if I dropped more so you MIGHT be able to see a difference.
Thank You! ♥~Hannah(:

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Life and Weight

04/21/2014

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Have you ever felt SO terrible about your weight you just want to die? Everyday I feel hideous and disgusting. I am. I am trying to change myself. There is no motivation. Nothing. I feel dead. Depression has hit me like a train. Today is April 21, 2014 and I apologize to those who actually read this for not posting. Life has been cruel. FLVS sucks knowing that I am too stupid to hurry and finish this all.
I took a picture to see the weight difference but didn't see anything. I am 212 still. I am walking with my mom tomorrow in hopes to lose a few pounds by the end of the week. I need to rant a little.
It hurts me and breaks me down knowing I am there for others, motivate others, but I get nothing in return. Am I not a good friend? Am I just not enough? Am I so terrible to not get the same respect back? I may or may not post again tomorrow. Life has killed me and brought me back to life just to torture me. All I have is Colby, my mom, and my friend Kyle. I will no longer talk to those who act as if I am worthless and nothing but a waste of space in this world.
I will maybe post the picture with a new, hopefully happier blog tomorrow. I give up on friends anymore...
Goodnight guys. Judge me all you want, hate me all you want, talk about me all you want. Just shows you're nothing but a piece of dirt, on shit, on a stick.
~ ♥Hannah(:

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Exciting news!

04/13/2014

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Hey there guys! I have AWESOME news! I am down to 212 from 215! I am SO proud! My goal is to be 210 by 4/15/14. I may reach it before then! But I am so happy and I am SO dedicated. I have no more cravings for unhealthy food. In fact when I think of it, it makes my tummy hurt. Anywho. I haven't been exercising only because I cant find anything simple and effective to do :( I want to start walking but no one will do it with me... v.v BUT! I am shocked that even just eating healthy is making my weight drop. THANKS FOR THE SUPPORT GUYS! <3 Means sooooo much to me :)

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Todays Lunch~

04/10/2014

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Celery and Peanut Butter, Carrots and Ceasers Dressing? I don't know :p THEN! Crab meat. I can NOT stand Celery at ALL! And hardly peanut butter. But this is a healthy lunch. Probably wont eat all the Celery for sure lol! Just going to eat it until I don't feel hungry anymore. DAY 4!

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Tonight's Dinner!

04/09/2014

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April 9th for dinner my family and I had peanut butter and banana sandwiches on whole wheat bread. Not bad :D!
Looking forward to the future me! Keeping up with healthy eating isn't as bad as I thought!

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Weight Pictures!

04/08/2014

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I didn't take flattering pictures because that would defeat the purpose. I am ready to see the hate comments but I am being brave and I am ready to show you what I look like now and what I will look like in the next few months. so this is number one, my biggest problem is the lower part of my tummy.

Excuse the disgusting mirror LOL but This is me not sucking in but I have my pants high enough to where it conceals my problem area. This is the shirt I would LOVE to fit in before July 25th. God this picture is gross and I am SO ashamed of myself. I will no longer turn to food when depression hits. Well you understand now, time for the sucking in picture!

You can kinda see where my issue is! I want to be skinnier than that but I want to be anything smaller than what I am now.. This is taking so much out of me I am shaking I am so nervous but I would love to show everyone I wont give up on this.

This is the part where I want to die... I weigh 213 I lost 4 pounds the last two days. I am slowly making progress but I am so proud of myself.
My short term goal weight for now is 200. I want to keep losing and my long term goal is to be 100 pounds. I know I can do it and I know I have support from Colby and family.
~ :)Hannah♥

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Proud!

04/08/2014

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I have NEVER been SO proud of myself before. Lost 3 pounds in 3 days I believe. I am posting the goal picture later!
I cut sweets like ice cream and other various snacks out of this diet and I only drank Ginger Ale and Water and a super small glass of milk.
I need a blender so I can start making fruit and vegetable smoothies! :) It sounds SO gross but I have heard people lost a lot of weight drinking them and they're good!
Can't wait to lose more weight! I am so proud of myself.

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18th Birthday Ideas!

04/07/2014

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So of course! Universal Studios is a MAJOR idea for me! Nothing will change that :p.
But it is VERY expensive and cost us $1,000 last year. Which that is a huge bummer.

There is Old Town in Orlando also but my parents say they are tired of it since they just came back from a 2 day trip there. It is kind of sad since I haven't been since my last birthday. I want to do something fun for my 18th birthday but this year it looks like we won't do anything we all want to do. :(
There is Busch Gardens but that is more adult like than Universal and I will ALWAYS love Universal more than Busch Gardens. I am a kid at heart and seems like I always will be. We went to Universal and Old Town for 3 nights last year. Now all we can do this year is like stay the DAY at Busch Gardens then come back home. That is not what I want. I will never want that.
I don't like Busch Gardens that much. Nothing really to do there that is as fun as Universal in my opinion. It makes me want to cry. :(
I will NOT go to Lego Land or Sea World or Aquatica or Sun Splash or anything else of that sort.
I just don't know what to do. I want to have fun for my birthday but other people want different things. How can I make everyone happy INCLUDING myself? This is torture at its finest.
~ :)Hannah♥

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Update♥

WooHoo!

Life and Weight

Exciting news!

Todays Lunch~

Tonight's Dinner!

Weight Pictures!

Proud!

18th Birthday Ideas!

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